song to the hope inside

the fastest way out is always mine
the easy way out
alone i pine
for the things i never crave
all those things disappear
right in front of my eyes

the ones i hate are always mine
the easy way out
again i cry
for the ones i never saved
all those thoughts reappear
now that i´m left behind

there´s something else here
amidst the pain and fear
a feeling of uneasiness
like i´m becoming less
an empty glass and a full
headache of nothingness
a full ashtray and some
thoughts i still caress
in this frozen broken path
i chose out of cowardice
like you would ever last
inside this fuckedup id
a neverending nightmare
and a pocket full of me
a mind that won´t care
again i feel the scream
that escapes from within
my own limbo divided
reaching out to anything
now in me you subsided

the fullest pain is always mine
the easy way out
alone i´m found
inside you i couldn´t stay
in darkness you disappear
proud here i stand blind

the truth i know is only mine
not even a way out
a null mind
the things i never hated
slowly steadily disappear
and unearthed you find me

this i don´t want as mine
a way in not out
to reach inside
this disguise i created
and its threshold tear
and the future take as mine